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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 12:18

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

All the time i was locked up.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Would this be the day?

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

When I buy a house, do I automatically own all items the previous owner failed to remove from the property?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

It was going to be , some day.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Where the ultimate outsiders.

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One cannot live in the past .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

What is the irony of life according to you?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She was in good health!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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We all went to grammer schools

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Why is my coworker suddenly being so mean towards then being nice like nothing happened? She is nice with everyone but me.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

So whats the point in blame.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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He resisted the act ,that day.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

So, i spoilt her more .

She wouldn,t have been !

This is how, and why children get BPD.

My family never makes their pension either.

I will be 64.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I was very sick at this time too.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And i lived it daily.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Im still living with it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She married twice! .

I have no regrets .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My life is so biszare .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I write beautiful poetry .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Why did i forgive my father ?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I don,t even have a pension.

I said to her

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

(And it was in our own minds.)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I think the readers, may guess!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Put me off passion for life!!

I was seconnd youngest,

Who then, do I blame.?

We were not on the streets..

She loved him until the end.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I never cut or harmed myself..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I was 9 years of age.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I waited trembling.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Ive learnt so much.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Comes on , in middle age.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

What did i know ?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I was scared of men, in general

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But ive been too sick for many years..

He knew the spot.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But, we were locked up after school.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But it wasn’t much.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

When she asked me how she looked .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

This is soul school!.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She found it foreign!.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.